"What the hell happened with us, because I, for one, am confused."

Billy was stunned for words, how the hell was he going to answer that question? Why should she be confused when he was the discarded tissue, and he had to watch as she went around with all the boys, including his own bloody brother. His brother!

Did I hear the right? Youre confused? Youre confused. Oh come off it! Billy exclaimed, his eyes wide as he tried to consider how to reply. Right, so yes. What the hell did happen? Firstly, lets start right at the beginning. He nodded, yes that was the most organised route to do things, to just state it from the top down.

First, Billy held up his index finger, First, there was the common room thing, everyone knows about that, Moira saw it. I liked you, I really did but being as indecisive as I am about things, didnt know how to approach you and say Look, I dont want to just fool about maybe we could. I thought Ill give it time to swirl in my head and everything, because there was the thing with Peyton, and that confused the hell out of me too. I didnt know how to behave around girls I liked at the time.

Second, Up went another finger, Just when I decided, Right. It might be worth giving a go, I find you snogging Sirius Black in the fucking bloom closet! That was it, all dashed, and then you pull that stupid girly, Im upset face and make me feel guilty for flipping a switch on you even though you were the one that slapped me. How the hell does that work? I should have just walked away and left you, but you always pull me back. Youll always do.

Billy took a break for a moment, trying to recollect the memories. They were painful memories, not the stuff one would like to recollect.

So then we had our argument, you berated me for telling Lydia that Sirius was cheating on her with you. We ended the year on a sour note and I was hoping to forget about it all by summer and start anew but NO! Something had to happen, and I get so consumed with guilt for making you cry and run off that I come to visit you. Big mistake huh? Yeah, because as I found out from the Rumour Rag, you came to repay the visit and met with Malcolm and fucking lapdanced for fucking Malcolm! Billy said angrily, his face turning red. How the hell does that make a guy feel? Complete worthless. Ooh, hot older brother! I want to have a piece of that! is that how your mind works? Oh course, my brother is to blame too. To think I didnt realise this until I read it through that Rumour Rag, after I slept with you.

There was an awkward pause in the room, and Billy cringed. Great, airing his dirty laundry for the whole world to see.

Not to mention that I defended you against Sirius during the summer, got into some retarded fight with my brother watching I would have knocked him in the face too if Id known. Id made a fool of myself, all because of you. Then you go off into the arms of so many other guys, and I didnt know about them and didnt know how I feel about you. I thought that maybe we could have just have fun, friends with benefits and all but I cant do that to myself, even if you could. The Rumour Rag confirmed it all; I was just another one of your conquests. I liked you a lot Jacquie, but in the end, I felt like some stupid puppy chasing a butterfly that would never land long enough for me to Billy paused again, almost saying eat it. Well, catch you so, there you go. I wanted you - I even tried to kid myself into liking other girls- , but obviously you didnt want me if you went off with those guys, it was my fault too I should have just been upfront, but with these kind of things, Im hopeless. I know now, that the most I could have gotten from you was friendship, I should have given up long ago.